Like many families, my family doesn’t celebrate Christmas from a Christian standpoint, mostly from a cultural standpoint. None of us are really Christian, per se. Christmas music is huge in our house, however, mostly because of my mother, the rest of us like it for the most part (possibly because it’s one of those family things since mom plays it all the time around Christmas time) but we don’t do as much listening as she does.

Since Christmas music is so big in my family I thought I would share with you my favorite Christmas song. It’s not terribly well-known (read: not overplayed). I usually listen to The Carpenters version of it, but I found the Frank Sinatra version of it on YouTube and thought I’d share that.

It is The Christmas Waltz.

Happy Christmas to all you who celebrate it, religiously or culturally. Happy Hanukkah, Happy Solstice (a few days ago), Happy Holidays to all, and may New Years bring you all the happiness and gifts that you desire.

Since it’s getting to be that time of year (it’s December already?! How did that happen?) I thought I would share a few naughty things on my xxxmas wishlist. I’m not expecting to get all of these this holiday season, probably only one if any, but a femme can dream, can’t she?

Advanced Play Piercing Kit from Play Piercing Kits.Com which includes pretty much anything you could want for play piercing, as well as a case to carry it all in. I’ve been drooling over this since I found it, and I want to make it mine!

The Midori Value Kit in crimson and The Seductive Art of Japanese Bondage by Midori from Twisted Monk, to better try out the ties from Two Knotty Boys Showing You the Ropes as well as Midori’s own book.

The Deluxe Toy Bag from Protocol Leather which includes: 2 paired Two Tone Suede Floggers, 1 Protocol Flogger, 1 set of Ankle Cuffs, 1 set of Wrist Cuffs, 1 Collar, 1 Dragon’s Tongue, 1 Snake’s Tongue, 1 Protocol Agony Cane, 1 Stinger, 1 Protocol Strap, and 1 Lexan Cane. I just know that Onyx and I would have lots of fun with all these delicious implements.

I also desperately desire a Violet Wand Kit, though they are way out of our current price range (though so is the protocol leather kit, but I can still want them! I have seen electrical play done, but not yet experienced it for myself, but I want to rather badly, and I know Onyx feels similarly.

There are, of course, non-sex fetishes that I also love to partake in, namely my shoe and boot fetishes. I figured I should add a few of those in as well.

Corset Magic Boots from Pennangalan. I have wanted these boots for just about this side of forever (or about three years) and just have never been able to afford them, since they are expensive as it is and also from the UK. They are gorgeous, though.

I was going to include a pair of cute Fluevog shoes, but the site doesn’t want to load. May edit in later!

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There are so many Fluevog shoes I’ve been drooling over, and boots too, including these boots and these boots, but I already showed you a picture of boots I want, so I’ll show you some Fluevog shoes. Since I’m chronically unable to make up my mind or choose just one when it comes to things I like, I’ll show you three! Though I can’t decide if I want the first ones in black or red… maybe both!

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So, that’s my expensive naughty wants this holiday season. What do you want?

It seems to me that a lot of podcasts that started back in 2006 that I loved have mostly all fizzled out (like mine). Those that stuck with it are now, well, rather internet-famous, such as The RopeCast and Poly Weekly. Those that didn’t… well, we’ve faded to oblivion for the most part, though there are a few that are trying to make a comeback, such as Ellie Lumpesse’s Bedroom Radio and my own, Sacred and Shameless Sexcast (though she’s doing a bit better with hers than I am with mine).

Basically after a very long break I started up again a few months ago, but that has fizzled out as well. My last cast Anal, P.S. It’s Fabulous was about two months ago, and although I’ve thought about doing more casts they just haven’t happened.

So, the question I’ve been asking myself lately is what do I do about it?

One thing is that I’m going to lose the story part of the cast. I originally was trying to have three sections to the sexcast: an information section on whatever the topic was, a sex toy review on something that correlated with the information given, and an erotic story which may or may not correlate with the other two. Now, this worked out okay for the first few casts, when I was excited about it and had the time to make them frequently. However, lately this has been trouble. I find myself dissatisfied with all the erotica I write, and mostly because I’m not very confident in myself as a writer. So, I’m going to bag that part whatever I do.

The other options I’ve been toying with are to just retire the cast entirely and start something completely new, maybe a femmeinist fucktoy cast or something, or just revamp the cast entirely while keeping the original episodes attached to it, but not as much a part of it. I’m not sure what I’m going to do at this point. On the one hand, when I was making casts I really loved them, they’re as much for me as for anyone else, and they are really fun to do. On the other hand, I don’t seem to have the time to do them anymore, but I potentially could if I was to specifically put aside one night a week to do it, using the rest of the nights to work up my topic and all that.

I’m just not sure. If I keep it The Sacred and Shameless Sexcast as I originally dubbed it my next cast will need to be on sacred sexuality. I’m not against that, I just don’t feel like an authority on it yet. But, then, I’m not sure if I’ll ever feel like an authority, but I can always tell my ideas about it, and maybe that’s enough.

If I changed it, what would I change it to? I guess that’s the question that I can’t answer, and if I could I may have changed it already. I do love the alliteration in the name, and being able to call it SSS, but, then again, it doesn’t really emphasize where my head is right now. My head is on gender, feminism, equality, identities, bdsm, submission, cuntpet-hood, Topping, and all sorts of things, perhaps things that can be fit into both sacred and shameless but not necessarily things that automatically come to mind with the two. Or maybe they are? I’m just not sure.

I’m just so unsure of where I want to go with it. Perhaps that’s what I should figure out first? Do I want to keep it the way it is, change it completely, or do I just need to get rid of it? I think getting rid of it is less of an option than the others, I just need to dedicate myself and my time to it in a more structured manner. But which of the first two do I choose? Hmm…

Some days I have very little to say D/s wise, and on these days I’m quiet.

I’m working on a paper for my Queer Theory class exploring BDSM, which should be interesting. I’m having a very hard time narrowing down a concept. I’m thinking of exploring gender, using Venus in Furs and Secretary, or possibly Venus in Furs and a scene which I will describe. Another option is marriage and BDSM, I know quite a few Dommes and male subs who won’t participate in it due to the misogyny associated with it, and since it pretty much goes the opposite of their roles, similarly, in ViF Wanda asserts that she could never marry someone who was subordinate to her, if she was to marry it would be to a Dominant man. I also know many female subs who want to get married to their Dom. And then there’s me…

Other than that… marriage would be easy to do, but I’m not sure if I could write twelve pages on it, though… possibly. I may add marriage into a paper on gender, and I could add something on gender supremacy within BDSM and also some things I’ve already talked about in here.

My Prof. agreed that basically at this point the hardest part for me will be narrowing down a topic. I think I just need to choose one and run with it, but there is so much that I would like to explore. Whatever I do I’ll end up posting it here, to be sure. It’s two weeks from the end of the semester, so I may be quite absent these next two weeks.